I did a scene in my improv class last night about two women at a carnival. My character was all about eating funnel cakes and the other character was worried about looking “bad” or “ugly” bc of the weight she would gain. My character kept telling the other character that she was beautiful no matter what size her hips were and encouraging her to let loose and eat whatever she wanted. At one point the other character turned to me and said “but how are you so free, how do you just not care what this food does to your body?” to which my character replied “its too exhausting to care”. The scene ended in us devouring all the food at the carnival and laughing. The scene was like any other but what really hit was during the “its too exhausting to care” exchange I saw a couple of the chicks in my class nodding their heads in agreement. After I sat down I felt this huge flush of ownership over myself. It made me think about how the moment we give up caring about what others think about our bodies we gain total ownership. We have to loose the extra “weight” of others ideals as well as our own to gain that ZING kind of enlightenment. When we do things like work out or eat “well” not bc others are doing it or of the end result ( and if thats what you want, everyone wants that sometimes and thats OK and COOL) , but bc it makes us feel good and we’re doing it for no one but ourselves. Self help and self health have no end destination, it’s only and always a journey. The most important thing is who is steering the ship- and that should always be ourselves.